Caution: Ego Coming Through…

While talking to me on the phone last night, my buddy Jason stumbled up on the IE article on Wikipedia, and found out that my IE piece from last year is listed in the opinion section.

That enthuses me.

In fact, it enthuses me too much. It’s come to my attention that everyone who blogs has some degree of an ego problem, and I think it’s probably unhealthy. How does one balance wanting to post good content and be appreciated for doing so, with not being obsessive about it?

I mean, it’s easy to link-whore yourself all over the place, but then it’s just a hollow, lame feeling that you get when you see your name in lights. The coolest recognition is that which comes from passively being noticed. I say this, mind you, after having just posted my IPTABLES piece to my favorite forum in hopes that someone will tell me, “It’s great!”, or, “It really helped me!”.

So what does that make me? A psychopath? Perhaps. Alas, it feels good to help people learn stuff, and it feels good for people to say they liked what I wrote. My problem isn’t that it feels good, it’s that I am not comfortable with any degree of desire within myself to chase that feeling.

Oh well, I’ll continue on and hopefully not get swallowed up by it all. As for my friends, it’s incumbent on you to let me know if you feel me get out of hand. Hell, even if I don’t know you, email me and tell me — it’s the only humane thing to do.

-God